Isaac and Eric go to Kindergarten

Well yesterday Isaac and Eric started Kindergarten. They were not all the excited about it. And well I had to sike myself up about too. I woke them up and and said" rise and shine little ones on your feet are you ready for school?" They replied with a very basic "ugh no". I told them that they would have lots of fun and that Kindergarten would be a great year cause they will learn how to read. ( they LOVE to learn) They got up, got dressed, ate and brushed their teeth. Then it was time for the bus. As we walked down to the bus stop, a rush of memories over-loaded my mind. Flashbacks from the moment they were born, all of their" firsts", and precious moments from the past 5 years. Where did the time go? When they were toddlers it felt like I was there FOREVER it was some rough times. But it feels like all I did was blink and those moments were gone, just like that. And being that I have other children I know that this is only the beginning and that I will"blink" again and they will be in junior high and then teenagers. I know I have talked about it before, how the times seems to fly by to fast. But it is in this passsage of time you find yourself treasuring those very moments that you thought you never would. You were just in "survival mode" getting through the day and now that it is over for some reason you ALMOST wish you could go back.

So as they got on the bus and I watched them pull away,I started to cry. I knew it was coming. And as much as I had prepared for the moment I could barely stop the tears. I love those boys. I miss them being home with me all day. But time must keep ticking and kids must grow up. I could not wait for them to get home and to hear the report of the day. The first thing Eric says is "Mom you lied to us" I asked" how?" He said" you told us we would learn how to read and we didn't" I just couldn't help but laugh. They had a good day and Isaac said " mom I know how to spell zoo,it's so easy Z-O-O, see I don't need school". Well if only that was all we needed in life, just to know how to spell zoo!!!

Name please

We have had such a difficult time trying to pick a name for this new baby who is due to arrive in about 9 weeks. I fell like we have simply run out of names. Either the name that one of us picks the other doesn't like or we already know someone with that name. I have now come to terms with the fact that I don't care anymore if I already know someone with the name. If Ronnie and I agree then that is all that matters!!! We kinda agreed on Ben but you know a name for your child has to really grab you. And well,though I think it is a cute name, it doesn't grab me. So I thought of Peyton and I REALLY like it ( it grabs me) and Ronnie doesn't dislike it he simply said "that the more I say the name the more he likes it". I had to remind him that it is also a quarterback's name!! So I found myself out of no where saying" Peyton" so he would continue to like it and it would "grab him!" So a possible name is" Peyton Michael" Of course I know what will probably happen what always happens--- once he likes that name I won't. Not on purpose, I guess b/c it is not definite I keep searching and by the time he likes it I have found another name! Ashley also said to us that it is a boy or girl name so even IF the baby turns out to be a girl( she claims that nothing is 100% until the baby is born, ya gotta admire her hope!) we could still name her Peyton and all of my embroidery ( if done) I could still use. What a smart girl I have!!!

Sketti O's & Caleb

Caleb will now only eat if he gets to feed himself. I am having some issues with this, seeing how my chores have now increased a bit! But like any mom, if that is the only way they will eat you just let em do it. No matter what the price you may have to pay. Thankfully the stains came out of this outfit, however next time I give him food with red sauce I will remove the clothes first!

Birthdays and Beginnings

The last week has been crazy! Matt and Ronnie both celebrated birthdays and everyone here is getting ready to begin the school year. Matt is now 14 and all he talks about is next year when he can drive. He continues to make mention of his "dream car". Which is a corvette, by the way! I told him that we all have dreams and that it is ok to do so!!!! He is also getting anxious about starting his freshman year in high school.( I cannot believe I am here ALREADY, where does the time go)Though I am sure he (we) will be fine!
Everyone else is ready for school,too. "2 more days","1 after today" are the words that will echo in my mind today. Even as a mom, I can only describe my own feelings like that of when I was a child towards school." I am nervous, ready for the change , yet NOT ready for all the homework and assignments!" I am praying for a wonderful year ahead. When school starts you can't help but feel like you are turning your kids over to people you don't even know. That is such a hard thing. To leave on the first day of school, after dropping them off. I just want to cry for them. Do they feel abandoned, scared, lonely? All of the sudden, since summer is now over and you are not with them every hour of the day, you have no idea what they may want to tell you b/c you are not there! I know I am thinking way to much into this, and my kids do great in school, but I can't help it! Ok let me say it again I am praying for a wonderful year ahead> I need to focus on the fact that God is STILL with them even when I leave this Friday. And he is EVERY where I can't be with my children. I can hear God telling me,( not audibly) "will you let go, I got this". I need to remember that, though I cannot fathom this, God cares for them more than me and better than me!
Dear Lord,
I thankyou for all of your wonderful blessings. I thankyou for these children that you have entrusted to me. I pray Lord that as school starts this week that you will be with all of us, meeting us where we are, giving us whatever we are lacking. I pray that you will be with my child's teacher and that she is the one chosen by you to suit my child best for this year. Thankyou Lord that you care enough about all these things in our lives that in comparison to your kingdom seem so tedious and worth nothing. Thankyou for all that you are and all you have and will do.
Amen